For a long time now I have been far from consistent when it comes to writing on this site. And by “far from consistent” I mean I hardly do it at all any more.
A few days ago I finally admitted to myself why that was.
Why I don’t write as much as before
One word: embarrassment.
The last year has seen my self- and world-views shift dramatically, involving a crash of self-esteem followed by its fairly recent restoration.
One of the victims of this crash was the belief that my writing had any purpose. In-part, I allowed several jibes about my writing/thinking style to dissolve my self-confidence.
I realised that I had let slip something I enjoyed doing because I was scared of how I’d be judged. Surely I don’t still suffer from this fear of rejection bullshit? It would appear I do …
I’m hoping that if I can push myself through the inertia of not writing I can somehow maintain a decent habit.
We’ll see (it’s taken me 3 days to publish even this post!)
A nice new website name – Plog
Frankly, I’ve never been happy with “Life In Balance” as a website name. It’s always been a bit too “dry” for my liking.
I also didn’t want to call it “Paul Goodchild’s blog” because that’s drier than a dry shite left in the sun.
So I’m opting for something that makes little or no sense; something short & sweet; and anything that’s not either of the 2 names already mentioned.
So now this site called ‘Plog‘ – basically Paulie’s Blog.
If you can think of anything better, drop me a comment below – I’d be delighted to hear what you think. :^)
I’m also going to attempt to inject a bit of humour, and care a little less of the readership. Yes, to care less of what you think.
I made several key realisations about my website:
- I hold back. Sometimes more, sometimes less. But I do it.
- I have things I want to talk about and relate. But I don’t say them because there’s either so much to say about them, or I’m afraid I’ll be misunderstood.
- I want to express the same humour online, as I have offline. I don’t know how I can do that here, but we’ll see.
So there you have it. My first post in 2 months.
That is all.